hallo. hallo is there anyone. is there anyone out there.

my exams are finally over.

hmmm actually i just wanted to blog this song,


Falling Slowly

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You'll make it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

i can't believe i keep staying out so late nowadays.
no wonder my mom isn't happy.
i reached at 4am yesterday? no that's today morning.
and all i've been doing is just talking to a bunch of friends, but we can talk on all night, and probably could have gone on if it weren't for the fact that I had to reach home before my mom leaves the house today at 4plus for her flight.

it's time to meet up with everyone!!
i won't be in singapore from the 9th to the 15th though, but really!
let's all meet up.
hope all these meetings don't clash though.
yeap (:

Isn't it queer, how it feels like my life now revolves around a whole new way of living, and a whole different group of friends?
And it seems that we can never get enough of each other too, despite seeing each other almost everyday. But of course, we do get tired of living life at such a pace, that this study break and exam period is actually a welcome for most of us.
It's worth celebrating, when we submitted our last submission for our design module yesterday for this semester.

And suddenly I start to realise that songs tend to sing about not being able to sleep at 2am, thinking about someone or something, and to me, 2am isn't much of a big deal anymore. But i suppose 4am and beyond seems to early in the morning, where some sad souls have to wake up for work, and 3am just doesn't sound as pleasant as 2am.

After these few months in aki, i realise that words such as "cui" and "imba" have become part of my daily choice of words to describe something. there's sometimes simply no better word to describe a failed attempt at model making or concept, and no better word to describe the complete opposite.
The question to ask every late night we have is "how's your progress?".

It's amazing how i have managed to make such an awesome group of friends in aki, perhaps out of pure luck, but we are probably the rare group of friends who'd stay up the whole night just to help each other complete our models and drawings, even if we have completed our own work. Seems like those are hard to come by around here.

I guess i'm barely blogging nowadays, because my life is just a little more unusual as compared to others, and that I now barely see anyone other than my family and aki friends, and since everyday would seem the same to anyone else (in fact, to my family too), then there isn't much of a point writing the same things everytime.

I do want to meet up with everyone else though, and i suppose the time will come in the upcoming december holidays. To catch up with everyone, and to see the kind of lifes they are leading, now that we have probably all found a our new group of uni friends. which is why all the more we should catch up and do the same things we used to do, like hanging out at a friend's place making music, hanging out in town beating high scores in photohunt, going out for meals, watching movies, and most importantly, exchanging new gossips hehe...

I guess that's all for this post then (:

Hallo everyone.
How have you been.

I have not been very happy lately.
Over a couple of reasons. And no, i'm not telling you, so be warned, this is probably going to be a short and boring entry.
woohoo.
I'm not being very myself today.
It's studio free week. How strange isn't it. and it's not helping that i'm still in a holiday mood, as though recess week is still on. of course i have been doing my work, but definately not enough. It's never enough, isn't it?

By the way, in an incredibly random way, i would like to say that i really need my driving license. I cannot stand it anymore, that everyone passes their driving test and get their license. Yet at the same time, i dread having to learn and take the test all over again. the horrible feeling of uncertainty, knowing that i'd just make a mistake, just KNOWING I WOULD, and then really hitting something or whatever, and having to send out sad smileys to people who gave me assurance before that i will definately pass my test.

crap, im always talking about the same things.

i need to start feeling the motivation to get things done and live a proper life again now. cause right now i sort of feel like wasting away my days. I guess it's recess-week-a-titis, the sickness you get when recess week just isn't enough.
also, getting a new table (that i really really don't like) and a new studio group (which i really really don't want) isn't helping one tiny bit at all.

Don't really feel much in the mood for anything lately.
WHAT'S WRRRROOOONNNNG.

i just don't like changes so much.
they never go the way i'd like them to.


one of my assignments in the first workshop.
so random again right.

YAY IT'S RECESS WEEK.

can anyone feel this joy?
i guess if you're having recess week too you'd feel this way.
of course there is still a bundle of things to do, mostly tedious work.
but then, without studio work, it doesn't seem like there's any urgency to start. i should start though, there's really alot of catching up to do.
not forgetting my other modules which seemed pretty nonexistant all this time.
the only thing i recall of them is sleeping during the lectures or not going at all. in fact, there was one particular lecture i remember distinctively.
the lecture had yet to begin, so i took the opportunity to sleep. and when i woke up, everyone was existing the lecture theatre. and i was a lil confused at first. before it occurred to be that i slept through the lecture and didn't even know it had begun.
then i went on to continue sleeping for 30 more minutes in the LT before i returned back to my studio.
423 has especially nice and soft chairs to sleep in, you see.

so anws, i hope i'd be able to meet up with everyone during this break?
it's only one week though, and i suspect everything will begin to clash, starting with my studio group outing on tuesday and an incredibly stupid project essay that i need to do, coincidentally on tuesaday too ):
i guess i'll have to meet my studio group at a later time.
i really like my studio group.
but unfortunately, it's all going to change.
because rumour goes that some annoying person complained and they are now changing it half a sem earlier.

i'll miss being able to hang out and being able to depend on the people in my studio group, but i guess change is something i'll always have to accept eventually.

hmmmm...
now i'm trying to think of something interesting to say, but i realise that all i have is memories of aki.
i didn't manage to take photos of all my final works though, else i'd post them, but then again, they probably won't look like anything to you because my workmanship is so bad, so it doesn't really matter.
im worried about where im gonna put them when i bring them home in the future though. as though my house and room isn't cluttered enough!

gosh, i really don't have much to say now.

oh wells.

maybe i'll have more to say after recess week.

I'm really tired, but here i am blogging!
cause i might not have the opportunity to do so till a long long time away again.
I've been sleeping an average of maybe 5 hours per night the past week, and i went to bed at 5am yesterday.
but if you think wow, that's quite crazy for university, think again.
cause my friend went to bed at 7am and woke up at 8am to go to school.
if you noticed my facebook status, you would know that i've been in school even on saturdays and sundays!

but at the same time, i'm not complaining.
I'm actually half enjoying myself, despite the stress, depsite the lack of sleep, despite the depressing and frustrating moments.
today's crit actually went quite alright for me, or so it might have felt. I know it could have gone better (my nerves got to me) but i won't ask for more.
I really have to thank my studio groupmates who were there helping me through it, and working in studio with me till the late nights.
Many more to come, but studio groups change, and i'd be so sad when the time comes to change groups and tutors.
Oh wells.

i'm really sick of macs. people tell me that i should get used to it, but NO WAY i think i'll just pack food. i feel so unhealthy lately, eating too much, and not moving at all. i should go exercise but how and when?
makes me miss rag alot haha...

oh yea, ever since i played with my friend's cam, i really want to buy a dslr!
my sister says she might buy one with her first pay (:
except tt she doesn't start work till january haha... but at least i don't have to save up for that. I barely have any money now to pay for my aki stuff.
i spent about $60 or more on my first studio assignement alone, buying film, cabbing, printing. and i didn't even count the amount i paid for the A1 paper (each piece $1.35) and other stuff.
Now i know why the government subsides the course so heavily, and yet people still say that architecture is an expensive course.
i haven't even bought a file and it might cost me more than 60bucks if i choose the expensive one!
doesn't that one object already prove my point how expensive studying aki is.

i'm rushing for time alot lately.
i don't have the time to visit a hairdresser, don't have the time to buy my converse shoes, don't have the time to head down to DBS to clarify my signature so i can get my debit card and the list goes on.
I'm usually out in the morning, home late at night.
at least i still go home. my friends have already begun to stay overnight.
suddenly, reaching home when the sky is still bright seems like an awfully weird thing to do.

im really really really tired right now.
think i shall just keep this post short and go sleep.

i'm excited about vivien coming home soon (:
and oh yea, take care of your finger, peter! i haven't heard from alot of pple since a long time ago. come visit me in studio if you have the time (must have said it tons of times before). just give me a ring before hand.

that's pretty much all i want to say, or at least what i can remember as of this moment when my brain is shutting down and going to sleep.

and lastly, a picture of a rose i took in studio! the flower began to wilt after my friend took a picture of it for our assignment.


and the really awesome rag float we danced in front of!


yea, i know they are random photos.
i must be tired.

i feel awfully lazy to blog.
yet im afraid that if i don't blog today, i'd lose that temporary high to blog.

SDE RAG'09 ROCKS!

omg we were toally awesome! :D
haha we won the flash mob contest done during flag day, we won the most environmentally friendly float (or something alone that line), and most importantly,
WE WON THE BEST OVERALL RAG PRESENTATION :D :D :D

i guess it's most amazing because everyone worked hard for it.
and we finally got what we aimed for.
i tried hard not to cry after the awards were given out. it was really an amazing feeling to be part of something and be so proud about it and of everyone.
i'm glad to see friends who turned out, whether to supposrt or simply to see, but who eventually came over and found me! (:
i'm glad we won this for our dance instructors who worked just as hard or maybe even harder to make this all happen.
plus the crazy overnight floaters.

i don't have any pictures though, because i didn't bring my camera to rag, but they are slowly being uploaded on facebook. 90% of them tagged with me inside are super duper unglam photos haha... oh wells.
i didn't managed to sleep from friday to saturday, so when i got home on saturday, i crashed the bed at 7pm, and woke up at 12.30pm today, waking up in between only once to change over from my parents' bed to my own.
i still feel so tired, and my eyes felt swollen when i first woke up!
but i find everything totally worth it for yesterday.
ohhh and the incredibly tasty free buffet, which tasted so good probably because we all knew we won it.
i'm glad i joined rag, because i met really nice pple there, and it feels really good to be part of something like this.
i guess loads of pple won't understand why i would want to spend so much time on this, and to meet strangers to work on something that ain't going to count much in life. But it DOES count alot in life, because it's an awesome experience to look back on (minus the unglam photos).

i find it quite sad actually, now that rag is over.
as tiring as the practices were, i will miss meeting everyone at the foyer, listening to the dance instructors, taking photos, learning the other dances, trying to give my best, feeling good after a good workout at dance.
i will certainly miss interacting with everyone, with the pple who i dance and work with, and who i will barely meet now that rag is over.
It's amazing how much i thought about rag, that it didn't even occur to me that national day was approaching till yesterday.
but all is not sad, because WE WON BEST OVERALL RAG PRESENTATION :D
hehe we won medicine and their crazy cheerleading.

well this is a short post.
maybe ill put up some photos when i have them.

now that you've read, all that's left is for
you
to
watch.

once again, i've been typing half completed blog posts, and never actually posting them.
same old same old.
I've been busy, i've been tired.
but then again, i believe i'm still quite enjoying myself lately.

Oh by the way, i failed my driving test.
24 points and 1 immediate failure.
I like to blame the L plate car and L plate motorcyclist even though it was proabably my lack of driving skills that resulted in my failure. I was really upset that day but thanks to friends who cheered me up, i feel much better, and now i just feel annoyed with the fact that i have to go through the whole worrying and scared bit for my next driving test which i have yet to book because friday slots are not available and i think i'll probably only be free on fridays because i'm an archi student and archi students are forever busy.
that's a long sentence, did you realise.

okay so back to what i've been doing lately.
I've gone out with mg and mel for a late lunch last sunday, which was nice, because we ended up laughing at things that weren't even funny at all as usual.
in fact, i laughed until my stomach and throat began to hurt.
makes me wonder when was the last time i laughed so hard at nothing.
ahhh i wanted to meet up with meiyan and shitong also, but we're all busy on different days, so it's hard to even plan a meeting date ):

oh, and then there was the meeting with 4i girls, which was last week i think.
And i concluded that alot of 4i pple went into business school, while s18 pple went into engineering.
and i was the only person who went SDE haha...

speaking of which, i shall talk about rag.
For this week, i had rag on monday, tuesday, wednesday and thursday, and every practice ends later and everyone feels more tired from the day before.
but no matter, i don't regret joining, because i still do have fun at it, and besides, i believe it's giving me the workout i need.
It's not that i turned healthier overnight, but i do feel less unhealthy (:

oh if you stalk my blog, despite the fact that i have very boring entries because my life isn't very interesting, and i don't type wonderful, interesting or thought provoking entires, you'll probably know that i sprained my left foot.
my left foot is now pretty much alright.
except for the fact that u sprained my RIGHT foot when my left foot was healing last week, because i tripped over my own slippers when i was climbing down the stairs at SDE foyer. TWICE.
don't know what's up with me lately, i've been so clumsy, i think my friends now believe i'm generally a clumsy person, which i really hope i'm not.

anws, that's partially why i didn't go for O week sentosa day today with my og.
my foot is like... swollen. not very, but it feel swollen when i step on it, and i really shouldn't be walking with a sprained foot anws.
haha so much for participating in O week. In the end, raggers were pulled out for dance practices during the O week events this week.

okay, i really should be either sleeping (because im still really tired right now) or studying (my $264 japanese test is this sunday and i haven't began to mug and i alr tend to feel damn lost even during the lessons).
instead, im blogging and chatting online and eating fruits.

oh wells, not like i feel like doing anything i need to do now.
say hi to elmer.



I've typed a couple of blog posts lately.
Except that they are usually abandoned halfway through, due to reasons like distractions due to the television, to reasons such as vivien calling me.
So i abandoned these posts.
But they all kind of sound the same.
Along the lines of what i've been doing lately.
and since i've found some kind of spare time now, i have decided to blog.
finally.

I'm feeling really tired right now, from running everywhere at all sorts of random timings, and not having enough sleep since i returned from camp.
For some reason, now that i've begun blogging, i don't know where to begin.
Well, i joined another camp, Prefab camp, last week, and met new friends again.
I wasn't exactly at the camp all the time, rushing to and fro from my driving lessons, and going home to sleep, because i didn't want to sleep on the floor in the studio in a sleeping bag, and also because i have driving in the morning, so i might as well go home first.
it was a pretty fun camp.
It's a different sort of fun as compared to the SDE camp.
YES the SDE camp was fun despite the H1N1 scare. But my point is that, the SDE camp had a more activity packed day, and it was just a crazy~ sort of camp.
prefab was more relaxing, and it was those many hours of unplanned activity that brought the group closer.
anws, here's a nice photo.
A jump shot! (:


unfortunately, i'm using my mom's computer now, and this computer doesn't have picasa, so i can't brighten the picture and make it look nicer before posting. But that doesn't really matter, because usually people don't really look at the photos they are not in right?
So it's okay if the photo doesn't look nice to you.

ahh damn, i think the headache is getting to me and i'm starting to sprout rubbish again.
I've been extra busy lately, because OMG MY DRIVING TEST IS NEXT THURSDAY and i'm trying to rush as many lessons as possible. In fact, i have circuit practise tomorrow, my second circuit practise, and im not exactly looking forward to it, because i screwed my previous circuit lesson.
and my friend told me that he just failed his driving test this morning.
that's not exactly helping me feel better about passing it.
i guess i'll just have to remind myself that somebody i know stalled his car 15 times in 2 hours on the first lesson.
that never fails to make me feel better about my driving haha...
and OH MY i have to wake up at an inhumane early hour of 7.30am tomorrow in order to get to school at 9.30am for my medical checkup.
and i joined SDE rag too.
In case you don't know what is rag&flag, it's kind of like a mini chingay in NUS, to raise funds for charity (i think). Faculties vs faculties and halls vs halls, and i heard tt the hall rag competition is pretty intense.
But once again, that isn't my point.
For some reason, i have became incredibly enthusiastic over things like these lately, and omg, i even enjoy orientation camps and making new friends?
What happened to my anti-orientation outlook?
I guess it's not a bad thing though, but sometimes i wonder if i'm changing the way i am again.
i want to meet up with 4i people, i want to meet up with s18 people.
I miss hanging out with familiar faces, who i know what to expect of, and who knows what to expect from me.
It's some kind of comfort zone.
It was nice bumping into marcus yesterday night at jurong point.

i just realised that i'm going on and on from one thing to another.
I'm tired.
i better stop blogging before i say some nonsensical stuff.

hope i can meet up with everyone soon.

Hallo everybody who has bothered to read the crappy boring entries on this blog!
Did you know that I am on unofficial home quarantine right now?
Today is day 5 if i've not recalled wrongly.
I am amazed how i managed to stay in my room 90% of the time over the last few days.
I have to thank my family for understanding, vivien for chatting with me in the aftnn, hongjie for playing dumb msn games with me, peter for the messages, and anybody who tolerated my insane behavior during this period of time.

Okay, so i have yet to go insane.
In fact, as much as i want to leave the house, i don't quite feel like leaving either. It's just me being lazy.
Anyways, in case you are wondering why i am under quarantine at home, then you probably:
1. Didn't know i'm going to be an architecture student at NUS.
2. Didn't know i was at SDE camp 5 days ago.
3. Didn't read the straits times page 8 about 5 days ago.
4. Don't really care because you just came upon my blog by chance.

I attended the SDE camp about a week ago in NUS, and turns out there there was 2 confirmed H1N1 cases, and i think the number is increasing. But thank goodness, i don't think it has affected anyone in my OG, so i guess i'm pretty much safe so far.
I hope i am.
I guess no one reall thinks this really matters, until it actually hits you.
The camp was supposed to last 4days and 3nights, and day 3 was suppose to be the awesome sentosa day. The whole camp ended staying inside our hostel room for almost 12 hours on the third day, and i returned home that night because my dad could fetch me home.
and for some reason or another, i'm signing up for another camp again.
and there goes another 40bucks, along with the 50bucks i paid for the SDE camp. And it's quite scary, in a sense that most of the people i'll meet in this camp is highly likely to have gone to the SDE camp too.
As though my timtable isn't messed up enough.
I'm running short of time to have another 15 more driving lessons, have to keep pushing back my NUS medical examination date, have to keep changing the time and dates for my tuition (which means i have yet to get the pay i was suppose to receive 2 weeks ago), and messing up my weekly japanese classes.

time passes extra fast and i see my remaining holidays just flying by.
one more month to go before school starts..
strange how being in the midst of this H1N1 mess suddenly makes me feel so paranoid about mingling with the crowd outside now. I guess it has finally occurred to me that I cannot be so lucky all the time.
If you see me using dettol hand sanitizer out there, please don't give me a strange look and understand my paranoia.

Okay i have really ran out of things to say already.
if you're still not scared of me, you can still ask me out for a meeting, before school starts and my social life officially dies out.
just to make this entry a little less dull, here's shaun the sheep and friends!


okay shaun the sheep is not inside ):
but his friends are cute.
okay then, i shall go facebook my time away again.

It's been 2 weeks since my last post.
I've actually been waking up early pretty often lately.
Japanese classes on sunday morning has begun, my tuition has yet to be transferred so sundays are early days too, brunch with yv and marc = wake up early, driving lesson = wake up early, plus last week's SDE admission day.
those are my early days.
I did quite a bundle of fun stuff too, including collecting my certs from nj and taking a walk in NUS with mel and mg, and going out with my sister to bugis to check out iluma.
let me talk about admission day.
It was a really weird day.
I went there, and realised that i didn't recognise anybody.
and what surprised me even more, is that it feels like a ton of people there came with other people. they came, sat down and talked with their friends.
even this girl i spotted sitting alone waved to this other friend who came with her other own group of friends.
and because i didn't have anyone to talk to, i felt kind of lost, especially when the talks were finally over, and everyone was exiting the LT to sign up and pay for the camps. I didn't know who to ask about the camps, didn't have anyone to look stupid doing stupid things with me, to help make me make a decision and yada yada all that stuff you do when you attend a gathering full of strangers and have a friend by your side.
oh wells.
time to make more friends who will see me through my university days right?
i just don't like the bit about making new friends out of strangers. in other words, i'm a pretty anti-social person. i don't exactly like orientation camps.
my camp begins on monday, and will last till thursday.
i hope i survive haha...

alright enough of my anti-orientation-camps talk.
i shall talk about driving now.
surprisingly, i actually quite enjoyed my last driving lesson, which was yesterday! From what i recall, i don't remember my instructor grabbing the wheel as often (which is VERY often usually) and he wasn't constantly telling me instructions too, which means that i'm not making as many mistakes.
I'm not any where near being a good driver yet, but i guess improvement is a big cheerup, and makes me feel a little more confident.
i really hope i'll pass my driving test in july.

next, i shall rant about tuition today.
TODAY WAS SUPPOSED TO BE PAYDAY.
the mother of the p6 girl wasn't at home when i was leaving the house, so i didn't get my $105 today. and i'm already running low on cash.
:C
sad. i should be feeling slightly more rich, and happier today, but seems like i've got to wait till next friday.
okay, so life shouldn't revolve around money.
but i DO NEED IT to pay for my driving lessons and food and transport and new clothes to wear to school.

alright, enough tiny little grey words on a bright background.
once last thing, i finally got around to baking a cake with my sister the other day.
this was before baking:


and thank goodness, the colour changed after baking.

The Red Velvet Cake (:

that's all then.